On Feeling Better, Social Media, and Medium

09-23-2020 – Do I see a light at the end of the tunnel?

Hello All!

How is life treating you?

Is Feeling Better Too Much to Ask?

I started thinking about how far I’ve come with my mental health and how far I have left to go. Although I still have depressive episodes (I am having one right now. That is why my newsletter is late), and the voices in my head are a constant, I do feel better than I did, say, five years ago.

The only thing that hasn’t improved much is my anxiety. Ever since I broke my addiction to Clonazepam, a benzo, my body has settled into making my anxiety feel like withdrawal symptoms. I have terrible body aches and fatigue, and I am too afraid of becoming addicted to another drug to ask for something to help.

I do things like using essential oils (peppermint and lavender), listen to soft music, meditate, and focus on deep breathing. I also exercise, take supplements, and eat healthy foods, but it hasn’t helped at all.

It’s getting to a point where I would settle for better if I can’t feel good.

Using Social Media

I watched The Social Dilemma on Netflix last week, and ever since, I have been reevaluating my social media use. For a time, the hours I was spending on Facebook in outrage over current events were hurting my already poor mental state, and I had to make some changes.

When I realized that these platforms are only using us as a product and feeding us content that ensures we will stay active and outraged, and in turn, will keep seeing the ads they want us to see, I knew I could turn a blind eye anymore.

I stopped letting outrage control me, and stopped spreading volatile memes about politics and current events. I limited my social media use and turned off notifications.

I no longer feel like I am addicted to scrolling. Here is how you can do it too:

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